SO.... Alex is a loser.. Done, finito, ended.... he decided that it wasn't important to get into contact with me... so fuck him... he hates me... I'm a crazy bitch apparently... Oh well, i already knew that..
Haven't been with anyone since.... well technically.. I've decided that I'm done 'dating'... No boyfriends... well, Amber may be an acception, but we'll see... i'm getting ahead of myself..
So Alex and I broke up... I started talking to someone else... We'll just call him Eisey... well, it was fun... then he got attached, then i got bored... I guess that's just how it goes with me... I'm never satisfied no matter what I get... eck whatever... he's still around... not sure that i want him to be though... i mean i really liked him alot for about 3 weeks or so... eh... so yeah... anyways, i'm back in eldersburg now...
and i met someone... well everyone else already knew this someone, but it's the first time i've actually met him personally... we'll call him jack... so jack and i started talking just as friends, and then things escalated... to the point that i was getting a little protective over him.. that's never good... and things have been great i'm extremely attracted to him, but it's just lust... because he looks like johnny depp omg so sexy... regardless, the other night we went to a party and some girl i've never met before sees him and automatically latches to his side.. wearing his hoodie and basically leeching off of him... it was at about that time that i said fuck this, and asked drew to take me back to my mom's house... of course, she offers to come, and jack comes as well... and i sit in shotgun while they sit in the back seat cuddling and giggling to eachother... and he has the nerve to get out and hug me when i leave... ugh whatever... i haven't really talked to him much since... that was 2 days ago... i haven't kissed him, barely hugged him, hardly even acknowledged his existance... i decided that it's bad that i'm getting jealous... i didn't come here to start a relationship with someone, i came here to get away and breathe... so it's for the best that we stop hanging out in such a manner... but then come more issues... my ex boyfriend, who also happens to be my best friend, seems to want to spark up a relationship again... he kissed me last night while we were sitting in the car in the dark listening to my ipod cuz he broke his stereo... right... regardless... he kissed me... well first he just starting doing stupid things like biting my jacket or nibbling on my hand or something, then he just grabs my face and kisses me... i didn't necessarily reject him... and then he texts me and tells me he loves me and all this other stuff and then he stops by my mom's house at like 11 at night... and yeah... he drags me into the car, kisses me, holds my hand and all that cliche shit... and i dunno what to even do about it at all... i mean... i'm leaving... i'm only here for a limited amount of time... just to get rid of some stress... i have to go back to grantsville soon to pack my stuff... oh yeah, i'm moving in with my ex girlfriend, amber... i dunno how it's gonna work out yet... maybe we'll get back together, maybe we'll hate eachother... i don't really know... i'm moving in with her because she is the only person who will allow me to move in with her and bring my puppy Rezzie... who by the way is my life... i love that dog and i will not give her up for anything;... anyways, yeah i've gotta go back to granstville and pack my stuff so i can move back to hagerstown... i dunno what my ex boyfriend expects to get out of this... i'm just really confused right now... i wanna come back to eldersburg and live, but i dunno... i miss it alot when i'm gone but i've been here for a little over a week now... and i'm bored again... i guess that goes along with the never being satisfied thing... whatever... i dunno what else to do.. i guess i'll just move in with amber, find a job, get the ball rolling and see how it goes... any advice?