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As she pulled out her oh-so-familiar box of razorblades and other sharp objects, she felt a tear escape from her eye and slither down her face. She couldnt believe she had sunk so low in life. She couldnt believe she hated herself because of love. She grabbed her sharpest razorblade and slid it with force across her arm. "One is for how many times I gave myself to you..." Another tear fell from her eye. She cut herself again. "Two is for the kisses I thought meant something too." She kept the repitition of the blade against her skin. "Three is for the presents and the gifts you got from me. Four is for all that times I said 'Its meant to be'." She paused for a moment and watched the blood mix with her tears and fall down her arm. Again, she lifted her razorblade. "Five is for the times you cheated with other girls. Six is for the time I realized that you were not my world. Seven is for all the times I stabbed your new lover. Eight is for the nights I cried and life became a blur. Nine is for the times I thught of you and nothing else..." She now had nine extremely deep cuts from the midpoint between her elbow and wrist. She hesitated once more and allowed herself to cry harder. She couldnt believe all this had happened. One last time, she lifted her razorblade. "And ten is for how many slits is took to kill myself..." She dropped her cutting utensil and her vision blurred. "I love you" were the last words that escaped her mouth. She began to lose consciousness and finally died.
©2006-2009 ~ButterflyStitches
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Author's Comments

This is the story version of my previous deviation - 10 cuts - poem..
pretty much the same deal... but its more in-depth..

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:iconmissyanaroid:
love this.. many emotions..

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Just smile empty soul..
:iconfirstdayofmylife:
This should probably be in the Prose section.

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You acted the film star while you were still spoken for, it didn't look rosy for me.

'YOUR HEART IS NOT BREAKING IT IS POPPY-RED AND IT WILL GO ON AS WE ALL GO ON.' Heather Schimel
:iconsilveremerald-das:
You give me shivers, damn you! :shakefist:

Haha, you know I love it. :hug:

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"Shoot me again, I ain't dead yet."
--Metallica
:iconbutterflystitches:
i do

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--(Holly)---

You're a nut!
You're crazier than a coconut!
What does that mean?
That boy needs therapy!!
:iconhoptunaa:
good writting.
The emotions are hard but true.

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Was könnte der Gedanke sein, der sich selbst schreibt, nur um erzählt zu werden.
:iconbutterflystitches:
thanks.

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--(Holly)---

You're a nut!
You're crazier than a coconut!
What does that mean?
That boy needs therapy!!
:iconjackielfult:
Very intense...
:+favlove:

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They don't know nothing about redemption.
They don't know nothing about recovery.
:iconyourxguardianxangel:
Is it sad, that I can relate to at least 6 things that you wrote about of what she said?
But, .. For me, honestly, not wrists. Forearm and shoulder.
How did you get to writing this anyhow?
Because this is really good.
And to someone, who does cut, it's a sort of good feeling, that you don't discriminate them.
But otherwise, this is really a great story.
:iconbutterflystitches:
It's not really that sad that you can relate to her. Because so can I.
I wrote this when I was going through a really hard time and a really strong cutting period.
When I was the most addicted.
Thanks you.

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--(Holly)---

You're a nut!
You're crazier than a coconut!
What does that mean?
That boy needs therapy!!

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